Less Calories / More Weight

I started my "diet" again, although I'm not going to really call it that. I have goals of how much I want to lose before our wedding, and even though we've already been engaged for eight months, I have only lost a total of 5 pounds. To be honest, though, I haven't really been trying.

But now that the wedding is getting closer, I know that if I want to reach my goals in time, I have to start working harder and get serious about them. I set a sort of mini-goal at 20 pounds by RWA Nationals, even though the truth is that I want to lose more by then. I have gotten off to a good start as far as calories and exercise, but when I stepped on the scale today, I gained a pound. I just don't even understand how that is possible. Losing weight can be so frustrating.

I guess it's a good idea not to step on the scale every day to check my weight, but I can't help it. I want to see some damn results for the hunger pains and the self-restraint. I started my calorie counting and such on Sunday, and right now I am sitting, somehow, at half a pound more than I was then... and a full pound more than I was yesterday. All I can do is keep sticking to my calorie count, drinking water, and exercising... and pray to God that by Sunday I have lost a pound or two.